befores and afters

I've been feeling a bit down lately because my weigh-in is coming up and I'm not feeling too confident about it. When I originally signed up with a personal trainer, I expected to shed a large amount of weight come December. My first goal is to get down to my high school weight which I was a size 14. I started off as an 18/20. I have been able to fit into smaller clothes, but I didn't feel like I had really seen a major difference. Yes, my body feels different. I feel cleaner and in a much better mood than I've ever been. I almost feel as though I'm much more positive than ever. But I don't think I'm quite a 14 yet :(

Well I came across several older albums on my computer that I was curious to go into. Here's a few pix from them:





I almost wanted to cry. It's amazing how your surroundings and your mind set can hold you back from being the person that you truly are. I always told myself that as long as I dressed neatly that that would be enough for me to feel attractive. But I literally let myself go. I use to hang out with people that would roll out for Mexican food at midnight. All we would do it eat. Not once did any of those friends say " hey, lets go for a bike ride and start eating lighter." I remember HATING going shopping because nothing ever fit and it was extremely depressing. I could never find any cute clothes and was limited to Torrid and Ashley Stewart. Never really expressing myself the way that I wanted too.

Now things are changing. I am cutting back on so much so that I can get closer to my goal. Yes, it is taking me longer than others. But I will progressively get there. I am enjoying going out and dressing up. Actually being able to fit into a decent dress is soo awesome! I feel so much more outgoing and I actually enjoy working out. I can see a difference in my pictures how my face is getting slimmer (YEA!) and my body getting leaner. I'll be right where I want to be in no time:)






Needless to say those "friends" are no longer in my life. Just a few simple changes to help me get to my goals faster. Now I am enjoying taking pictures.. especially full length ones.